It is funny what triggers a memory.

I recently cleared out my childhood home and put it on the market to be sold. Not a fun task to be sure. So many forgotten memories dredged up and put into storage, my loft or into a dumpster.

Life changes quickly.

When I was growing up we would play old Christmas records on an old turntable. Some songs you could anticipate where the scratches were on the album since we heard them so many times. I remember I HATED the song “Toyland” by Perry Como. The lyrics…”Childhood, Toyland, Mystical Merry Toyland, Once you pass its borders, you can never return again”

It always made me cry. No going back? To childhood? Yuk. It felt too final. 

But one of the things that brought me right back to my childhood that I saved from my mom and dads’ house was this 20″ block of scarred wood. It has 3 layers of hardwood that were tightened together with screws. When the house was empty and the garage nearly so, I saw this block of wood off in the corner. And It brought back sounds…

Pop! Clink, clink. Pop! Clink, clink.

We had a wood burning stove in my kitchen growing up. My mom was a fire bug (me too) and she would get up early and my sisters and I would huddle around a fire in the mornings eating cinnamon toast before school. And in the morning or at mealtimes throughout the day I would hear from the garage next door that sound…. it is so clear in my head even now… My dad grabbing a piece of wood and putting it on this “chopping block” he made to protect the garage cement floor and chopping the wood into smaller pieces. Pop! Clink, clink… as the split pieces hit the floor. I feel now it is one of the most valuable things I kept from my childhood home. I didn’t realize it at the time, or even as an adult, but this simple act of cutting wood was an act of love. Going out into the cold garage to chop up some pieces of wood to keep the family warm. To let us feel toasty and safe. I am going to find a way to hang it on a wall (a true piece of art) and when I look at it I will hear those sounds, and I hope it will be a reminder to find little ways to care for those around me.  

I am without parents now. It feels weird to write that. I lost my best friend, my mom, to cancer almost 14 years ago and my dad carried on alone until last month when he finally got to see her again. This Christmas will feel different. But life is still very, very good. My children and I will be celebrating the birth of my grandchild with a long vacation in the Caribbean and life goes on. I have a quote on my night stand that says, “You never realize that the little things ARE the big things until they are gone”

So cherish the little things this holiday season. Sounds. Smells. Laughter. Memories. Because in the end that is all we can really keep. You can never return again. 

In my typical fashion I will be taking off from writing this blog until February. A time to rest. A time to paint and to enjoy my friends and family. I wish you the very best memories ever over these holidays and a very Happy New Year. I am extremely grateful to you and I hope to see you in 2025.

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