I am back.  With a vengeance. 

So my life has been a roller coaster for the past 2 months. Breath-taking highs and shocking lows. Hurricanes, flooding, losses, birth of a grandchild and death of my father. 

And the universe has amazed me at how we are all connected.

You may have heard the phrase, “death comes in threes…” and I have found that to be very true across my entire life. So when my dad passed away a few weeks ago I waited for the other shoes to drop. I did not have to wait long. Two days later I got a call. An artist that I had known for over 12 years had passed as well. Her husband was calling to tell me the news. A funny thing- it turns out in a weird connection that she was also in the same hospital as my father in Pittsburgh and in the same hospice wing and on the same floor.  Her husband and I could have passed each other in the halls during visitation.

This artist was pretty special to me.  She took a number of my workshops and being a very savvy financial person, she convinced me to set up a “mentorship” program. I resisted. It took some convincing, but she wore me down and I started “mentoring” her. So because of her I wrote many lessons over the years regarding color, design and the handling of pastels. I eventually branched out and mentored as many as 8 artists every month from all over the world including Russia and South Africa. I used the same lessons and in a realization of self-discovery, I found out that I was pretty good at helping artists improve their work and moreover, at giving them confidence. And it was fun. And lucrative. So she deeply affected my artistic path. I also visited her at her home studio when she bought a serious set of Roche pastels (pictured above) and I helped her understand how to use them. 

When I moved from Pittsburgh to South Carolina we lost touch. So I was surprised when her husband called to tell me that she had passed away, but he was also calling to tell me something else. Her family wanted to  give the Roches to someone that would put them to good use.  In return, they asked that I paint her portrait.

I was overwhelmed. For those that are not familiar, Roche pastels have been made in France since 1720 and are the pastels used by Mary Cassatt and Degas. They are very expensive- typically $20 for a single stick depending on the hue. I have collected a handful over the years and have used them in my work that has elevated my images. I could not have created the work I have made in the last 5 years without them. Having all of the colors they make now at my disposal is like winning the lottery. (I frequently have said in many workshops over the years that if I ever won the lottery I would buy the entire set) 

So I brought them back to Greenville. And at first I could only look at them by opening the teak drawers and peeking at them as though viewing royal jewels. 2000 royal jewels. 

And then I knew what I had to do…I set the drawers on the floor of my studio and started to sort them into the way that they will work for me.

It was overwhelming and inspiring. And I know, I just know…that my work will change. Maybe not in what I create, but it will open up my options in how I create. Now I can play with color options and power unlike anything I have ever done before. 

And then I looked up how much it would be if I were to buy the complete set in these drawers right now online from the company in France. The price tag is over $30,000. Yep. It is a breathless amount for any artist. I am humbled with gratitude at this kindness which will shape my work and my decisions as an artist going forward. These “tools” will be put to use. I will not let them sit in those drawers no matter how pretty they are. I will not be afraid to break them, shatter them and burn them up- because just like a Lamborghini they were made to be taken out and run at full speed. I plan on putting the petal to the medal.

But first, I will paint the memory of my friend.

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