I am crabby. Crabby, crabby, crabby…
I was so crabby that I could not write a blog on time this week. I tried. The sentences would not come. The ideas would not appear. Write, write, write… yuk. Hmmm. Paint, paint paint… bleah.
Children ran away as I entered a room.
Now if you know me, you know that I am normally a happy person. It is my default mode. And most days I am up and raring to go in kick-ass mode. But not the last few days. Is it the quarantine? Is it boredom? Am I missing my favorite restaurant? Just hanging with my friends? Is it just a lack of good chocolate in my house? I really don’t know.
There are artists all over the internet that seem to have the most beautifully put together blogs, social media presence and videos. Perfect paintings. Happy videos. Perfect photos. The brush laying just SO in a photo. It would seem like they never have a hard time putting those things together.
I bet some days they do.
They all have crabby days. I have to believe that they are like me. Some days they don’t want to paint. Some days they are full of self-doubt. It takes so much work to look so polished. Those news anchors didn’t just roll out of bed all happy and perfectly coiffed and made up perfectly. That crap takes time and energy… and lots of coffee. So does art. This stuff is hard. Art is hard. Creating of any sort is hard. Life gets in the way sometimes and then we grouse. And the more we learn and more we realize that we have more to learn. Crap!
So if you are feeling out of sorts, wondering why the art is not flowing so perfectly and why you wake up one day feeling crabby for no apparent reason, realize that you are not alone.
I will be back to my happier self tomorrow. Probably. But today I am wallowing in the sand. Crabby.
And in not writing a blog about not writing a blog, I just wrote one… ha. So there.
The beauty of the internet, Christine, is that I already love you and we haven’t met yet! Thank you so very much for “not writing” this! You hit me on a perfect day.
you bet! I just felt I needed to tell my struggle. And then realized that is it a common struggle.
Right at this moment I am struggling with a new portrait and was wishing class was still in session! Everyone struggles, but it helps me to know that someone as proficient as you still does!
oh my yes….doubta and swearing….and then some victory days. Hang in there my friend!
Crabby? My husband sequesters himself in the garage as soon as he is finished his breakfast. I don’t blame him. Can’t paint, wont clean, every time I open my mouth I sound like I’m grousing. Blah, blah, blah. I’ve ordered more art books. I have no idea why. I read them, take what I wanted out of them and never pick them up again. (I wouldn’t say no to some crab legs, though. LOL) But, I got a haircut yesterday and I feel like a million bucks. Masks and all. Hubby even went past my chair and dropped a kiss on my head, and I didn’t bitch at him. I must be getting better. Or…Was it the haircut. Hmmmmmm. Hoping you have a better day.
awesome. maybe I just need a haircut? hug my friend….
I have always told my kids, “it really is okay to have crabby days, to morrow will be better” and it usually is. I look forward to tomorrow. 🙂 I always look forward to your blogs–crabby days or not. Smiles, Earlene
thanks! Miss your emails. hope you are painting! when you are not crabby…..:)
I love your honesty! We all feel that way from time to time. I am also a happy and optimistic person and there are days I too feel crabby! These crazy times can bring out the crabby in anyone.
so true!!! hug my friend!
I love this. Actually yours are always my favorite to read. Unexpected. Real. Thank you
thanks! I stopped worrying about how polished or “professional” these should be…I just am what I am….
It’s definitely now just you, Christine. Some days the world just turns in a different direction. They don’t come often for me, either, but when they do, I try to recognize it for what it is. Just a random, infrequent occurrence and not a lifelong affliction! That’s when it’s time for a good book or movie or alone time.
so true!
Ha ha, you are definitely not alone. Happy days are on their way.
you bet!
I feel the same and my sign is the Crab🤪🤣😂
so you have an excuse! hehe!
Even though I know intellectually that other artist struggle at times it seems that I am the only one that has doubts and struggles. Rarely where I want to be with my art, it is easy to just open up a good book and forget about even trying for an afternoon or even a few days. To hear excellent and accomplished artists such as yourself, express the same frustrations and doubts, gives me renewed energy to pick up my pastels and try again. Thanks so much for giving us a glimpse into your very human feelings. It is a helpful reminder that creating is not easy and can be discouraging at times.
said so well. yes this stuff is hard! I wanted everyone to know we are not alone and it is not easy…..
Thank you. I need to hear this!
right? we all struggle sometimes….
Love you, my friend 💕
“This, too, shall pass…”
Great blog btw 🌟😘
hug
I am astonished how very much alike we are. I relate to your comments and searches and do battle with self doubts. Love what you say and do. .
hug my friend! its so crazy- we are all alike in this crazy time. btw – I LOVE your piece at IAPS! 🙂